Isis, Goddess of Ten Thousand Names, has revealed another of Her faces to me. She has given me one of Her names to work with at this time in my development.
Late November, 2009...
I was working, cleaning out and hauling away trash from a customer's garage and office. As I was dumping the trash from the back of the pickup, a single tarot card landed at my feet: Kali, The Queen Of Wands from the Handl Tarot. No other cards were anywhere to be found. I picked it up and kept it, considering it an omen and potential talisman. I looked up queen of wands in my favorite tarot book (a blending of tarot and the Tao Te Ching) and, among other bits of accurate info, it quite specifically stated that this card is good for poets. Prior to this, I had been exploring dark places with my writing and looking for further inspiration. I have been led along by an unidentified dark muse, who I now believe has revealed herself to be Kali. I also researched the meaning of the card from the deck which it comes, the Handl, and much of the info regarding Kali seems to fit right now. The FOI Oracle for Kali, from rite 3 of Fortuna, also seems to be appropriate.
So, in the tradition of my ever changing path, I am getting ready to re-dedicate the shrine of The Iseum of the Tao of Isis to Kali. My spiritual work will focus on Her at this time, and I shall try to open myself to Her completely.
Kali can bring rebirth, but often one must experience pain or destruction for this rebirth. I believe that She has brought me through much pain and destruction, and my rebirth has begun. I believe Her influence has been with me for quite a while now, but She chose to not reveal Herself as Kali until now, perhaps because I was not ready to accept Her.
Hopefully the destruction has passed, and now reconstruction can begin. Since finding the card, my financial problems have become more managable due to (finally) getting hired on full time with the landscaper I've been working part time for the past year plus. Ironically, the destruction from the last snow storm and the wind storm which quickly followed it here in NY, have been the vehicle for jump starting my new career, as we have been doing non-stop tree removals due to storm damage ever since. Destruction leading to rebirth...
I will post updates on my work with Kali from time to time.
Wish me luck!
~ Paul, The Mystic Fool
